Mental Health Awareness 2017

May is Mental Health Awareness Month and I am going to share my story.  There is no need to be nor am I ashamed.  It’s time to end the stigma of having a mental health disorder. My mental health issues began when I was 16 years old.  I was a naïve teenager going through a…

The sun is rising once again

Our little family has once again weathered a storm of perhaps epic proportions!  We have been through so much in the past few years but still we manage to hold on.  This latest storm has been one, unfortunately, of my own making.  I don’t regret following my heart but I do have some remorse about…

In Real Life…

I laugh and smile to hide my pain. I find all the right words to say to you. I say everything is just fine and I’m ok. BUT THE TRUTH IS I may just be an ex to you, or just your friend now and occasionally your fuck buddy, But it’s so much deeper than…

Hello KO

Dear KO, Thank you for being a part my life at such a weird time for me. You’re wonderful for remaining patient and agreeing to take things at my pace which may very well be super, super slow. You know how much starting over scares me, almost as frightening as a nightmare. I know hurt…

Dark Day #2

The darkness continues on. Tears that run like rivers down into my ears searing my soul.

Dark Day

Today I’m feeling overwhelmed. My pain and sorrow runs so deep that I feel as if I’m drowning. It hurts to breathe. I can only lie in this bed filled with sadness, anxiety and dread.

Hurt

I have always tried to be a good citizen, a friend to the friendless, and a good Christian. I have never wanted to deliberately hurt a soul. I am not the confrontational type either. Yet, I continue to find myself getting hurt by the very ones that I truly care about again and again. Is…

Self-doubt comes a calling

I have days when I’m just bursting at the seams with self confidence. Then days like yesterday and apparently today that I’m just falling to pieces and brimming with self doubt. I don’t know how to kick this awful feeling. I want to isolate myself and make sure nobody can ever hurt me again. I…

Coming Home

The first  time I ever heard this song was in the movie “Country Strong.”  I teared up and I was moved beyond words!  At the time I did not have a place to call home so the words conjured up memories of a place that I had once had that I called home.  It brought…