Life with Fibromyalgia

Lately my family has been hit with a series of unexpected deaths, a fire that destroyed my sister’s home and her vehicles, my cousins and aunts got a two month notice that they had to move because the landlord was selling the property, and my children and I have suffered very personal losses as well….

Christmas Joy

On December 13th, our newest addition, a grandson graced us with his presence. He came kicking and screaming into this world like a mighty spark. His name is Kairo but my girlfriend has us all calling him Pyro because she says he’s going to light up the world! He has already lit up our world. …

I’m back…

It’s been awhile since I’ve posted but I’m back after a little hiatus. My life has actually been going pretty well lately. It’s still not without its ups and downs buy I’m finally beginning to see a light at the end of the tunnel. Disability I finally got approved for disability. It’s been a long…

In Real Life…

I laugh and smile to hide my pain. I find all the right words to say to you. I say everything is just fine and I’m ok. BUT THE TRUTH IS I may just be an ex to you, or just your friend now and occasionally your fuck buddy, But it’s so much deeper than…

Gone, baby, gone

CK is really gone. I should be happy right? She was discharged from the hospital, came and packed up her belongings and moved out into her own place. So why do I feel so distraught?

Our differences…

It’s never easy being with someone who is so drastically different from yourself. I love my girlfriend. She is about as different from me as water is from oil. The very things that sometimes make me laugh can be the very thing that at other times drive me insane. She brings out the lighter side…

Self-doubt comes a calling

I have days when I’m just bursting at the seams with self confidence. Then days like yesterday and apparently today that I’m just falling to pieces and brimming with self doubt. I don’t know how to kick this awful feeling. I want to isolate myself and make sure nobody can ever hurt me again. I…

Never again-Nickelback

He’s drunk again, it’s time to fight She must have done something wrong tonight, The living room becomes a boxing ring It’s time to run when you see him clenching his hands, She’s just a woman… Never again I hear her scream from down the hall, Amazing she can even talk at all, She cries…

Forgiving and being forgiven…

Everybody hurts sometimes. We sometimes end up hurting the very one we have stood before God and promised to love, cherish, honor, and forsake all others for.  The hardest words in the English language can be, “I’m sorry.  I was wrong.  Can you forgive me?”.  Admitting you’re wrong takes real strength and real courage.  But…

How do you get past hurt?

Very recently I had someone ask me for advice on how to move past a hurtful relationship.  I was truly stumped at how to reply.  How do you move forward when the pain in your heart is so fresh and so raw?  Comments and advice is welcomed.