So anxious… Not the song either

There is nothing like feeling anxiety, especially when it’s anxiety because of uncertainty. When I’m having an anxiety episode along with deep depression I tend to withdraw from everyone. I feel overwhelmed and  unable to tolerate others’ emotions’ and what they perceive as advice but I tend to see it as criticism. With that in…

Life with Fibromyalgia

Lately my family has been hit with a series of unexpected deaths, a fire that destroyed my sister’s home and her vehicles, my cousins and aunts got a two month notice that they had to move because the landlord was selling the property, and my children and I have suffered very personal losses as well….

My Grandkids

These are my precious grandchildren K.J.-age 2 months, Marlye-age 2, and my youngest daughter Lizzie-age 13.  They give me life!

Pondering on God and Life

I have been thinking and pondering about my faith and my belief about God and life.  It’s not so much that I doubt God’s existence but more a question of my faith in Christianity.  I’ve read and watched so many things that make me question it all and it leaves me feeling shaken.  I believe…

The Surprise Birthday Party

My middle daughter turned twenty years old on the twenty-eight of December. She knew that I was scheduled to be out of town for her birthday and she pouted that I never did anything special for her birthday anymore. Now that statement is only partially true. I hadn’t been able to really do anything major…

Christmas Joy

On December 13th, our newest addition, a grandson graced us with his presence. He came kicking and screaming into this world like a mighty spark. His name is Kairo but my girlfriend has us all calling him Pyro because she says he’s going to light up the world! He has already lit up our world. …

Regrets

It can be difficult sometimes living with regret. It’s hard to let go when your mind drifts back to things you’ve done or said and wish that you could take it back. I am striving to learn to forgive myself for mistakes that I’ve made in the past. Those demons love to come back to…

I’m back…

It’s been awhile since I’ve posted but I’m back after a little hiatus. My life has actually been going pretty well lately. It’s still not without its ups and downs buy I’m finally beginning to see a light at the end of the tunnel. Disability I finally got approved for disability. It’s been a long…

Dear CK aka Satan

Did I tell you about KO? Well, let me fill you in on her. She loves me. She loves me unconditionally. She’s funny, smart and super charming. She’s been helping me financially as well so I can get back on my feet. She gets along with the kids wonderfully and they like her a lot…

Before and after breast reduction surgery

Before breast reduction surgery, size 46G After breast reduction, 16lbs of breast tissue removed, size 40C I suffered some complications and set backs but I don’t regret it. They are well on the way to being nearly healed. How they look today Nipple reconstruction but no areolas yet.